FYI: Posts will be sparse around here until I replace my laptop.... Coming back to work after Christmas break apparently was too hard and it quit on me!

20 December 2012

What defines me...and how I cry at goodbye

I cried after I had over 12" of my hair cut off. I cried when I said goodbye to dance and packed away my shoes. I cried when I filed away another months worth of sermon notes and knew there would be no more of those. I cried when I let go of perfection so that I could complete. I cried when I packed away my camera--my new birthday camera. Now I cry as I say goodbye to blogging for a season.

I was known for my long hair--but it does not define me. Hair grows back in time.
I was known as a dancer--but it does not define me. Some people still notice and it makes me either cringe or do a happy dance inside.
I was known as a part of that church--but it does not define me. The Church is not a certain building or a few people. The Church is all believers everywhere.
I was known as a perfectionist--but it does not define me. I will hold myself to a standard of grace, not perfection.
I was known as a photographer--but it does not define me. I simply enjoy capturing what I see.
I was known as a blogger--but it does not define me. Blogging is merely a way to write my thoughts and share them with others to encourage them.

I am defined only by Jesus Christ--in Him I find my identity. He is my life--a life worthy of the Lord. 

"The Christian life can be explained only in terms of Jesus Christ, and if your life as a Christian can still be explained in terms of you - you personality, your willpower, your gift, your talent, your money, your courage, your scholarship, your dedication, your sacrifice, or your anything - then although you may have the Christian life, you are not yet living it." - Ian Thomas


When I let go of these things, I cried because it was hard. Hard to let go of what I thought had a right to hold and call mine. Really, I was hiding behind these things. Hiding because I was scared.
But God used these moments when I let go to do great things in my life. Now I look to see what he will do with this change. Change is needed, change is good, but change makes me cry--because I'm scared.
This quote by Charles Spurgeon sums up what I've been learning recently:


He is enough.  He is.

6 comments:

Joy

I will miss you, Emily Grace, on blogger. Very much. Your posts have been an inspiration and continual blessing to me whenever I had the chance to read them. But I admire your courage to let go of these things like blogging when the Lord calls you. Indeed, He is all and enough! Praise His name.

May the Lord Jesus bless you, dear sister, in this new season, when you put aside blogging for a while. I do hope you can pick it up again one day, but until then may you stay true to God's voice in this regard. And it would be good to remain in contact by e-mail :-D

In His love,
Joy @ joy-live4jesus.blogspot.com

Bree Holloway

I'm really sad not to have you around in the blog world, Emily, but I understand your decision. We should not only thank God for what He gives us, but for what He takes away from us as well, because He has a plan for us, and always protects us. <3

Love you dear!
~bree

Emilie

Emily Grace,
I am glad that you were able to let go of those things. I'm praying for you.

love,
Emilie

Gabi

this post is absolutely beautiful dear, it almost made me cry... I know all too well the pain of having to let go of absolutely everything that I define as me, though those moments taught me only the Lord Himself defines me and He is indeed enough <3 have a great blogging break, I know I've had to have many of those. when you come back, go over my new blog (http://flying-little-bird.blogspot.com/) :) merry christmas to you! xoxo

Rose Family Editor

You'd better not stop blogging. I think it's a healthy, encouraging, revealing aspect of knowing you. I will miss your posts because I love how you express yourself in writing and pictures. Please reconsider. :)

Becca Anne

change is so hard, and so inevidable.

This post is amazing. Happy New Year

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